I am struggling to type but I want you
to know. Last night, I started showing signs of fever and the nausea is getting
pretty bad. Whatever immunity Alex has, he doesn’t get it from me. I am going
to succumb to the Kharon Virus. It is not a question of if. It is a question of
when.
I am so sorry for my son. I am sorry
for leaving him alone in this world gone so horribly wrong. I can only hope
that this last year has prepared him for the journey he is about to face. So
many times, I just wanted to give him a happy life. I just love him so much and
I am so scared for him.
But I am scared for me too. I don’t
know what lies beyond. I hope I know. I hope it is all I imagine. Maybe it will
not be so bad. I hope that He is there to answer my questions. If things go the
way people say they go, then I will finally get to see my mom again and I have
missed her more than I could possibly describe in this blogg.
I’mm just so sorry for all my failures
in this life. I always tried to be the best man that I could be. I cannot say
that I was always a big successful but I always want to tried so hard.
I hope that Alex is the key to solving
this thing and hope my friends can get him to whoever charges in control of
things now. I am leaving him alone and I just want him to be safety.
I hurt so much. Like fire. I love you
son. Whereever you are going, know that I am with you and I love you. Please
remember me for the rest of your life and know that I only wanted your best in
life. I am so proud of you.
Hope this blog saved someones life or
kept you going. It saved my life. Hope it saved yours. Please fight. Fight to
the end. Life is precious. I love you, Alex. Please find a good wife and grow
old. Have kids. You were the greatest thing I ever did. So sorry I got bite.
Going to rest. Sorry I did not make it
a year.
Remember me and know I love you.
Goodbye.
