Saturdays always seemed to be more
reflective entries for me. Maybe it was the whole end of the week vibe. But for
some reason, on today of all days, I seem to be reflecting on our whole time
here. My dad used to have a saying, “How else were you going to spend your
day?” Something happens. Something goes wrong. You have to spend the morning
doing Chores A, B, & C. “How else were you going to spend your day?” It was
his way of looking at something unfortunate as a corrected mistake or a task
accomplished. How else were you going to spend your day? Watching television?
Rotting away on Facebook?
I am not saying that the zombie
apocalypse was the absolute best option but looking on my life, how else was I
going to spend my day? Trudging along doing the same old thing, day after day?
Culling the tomatoes and sorting the dates on the packaged salads for a pretty
meager wage? Was this what I was destined for until the Kharon outbreak?
Look at us now. Compared to how we
were 356 days ago, I would say we are infinitely stronger than where we were.
Yes, we have lost friends and loved ones. I still miss each and every one of
those people every day. But now we are battled tested. We are battle hardened.
And we are stronger than we were.
I don’t if we are reaching the zenith,
the apex, the crux of the climb. Maybe we are close to reaching that point
where things start going downhill but I cannot see it. I would say we are
stronger than ever.
We know what we are dealing with and
we know how to deal with them. More importantly, we know how to take them down.
Part of me wants to go back and look at some of my old posts just to see how
far I have come. But I’ve always wanted to live a life where you rip the rear
view mirror out of your vehicle and chunk it out the window.
Learn from your mistakes but don’t
look back. There was that lady in the bible that looked back and got turned
into a pillar of salt. Anakin’s mom warned him not to look back and look what
happened to him.
So maybe the best thing we can do is just keep
moving forward. I am very happy with how far we have come but there is still a
long way left to go. I am proud to have my son beside me and I am honored to be
standing shoulder to shoulder with some great people who are willing to get a
little rough and tumble when the situation calls for it.
I know good things are on the horizon.
I can feel it.
