Alex has made his choice. He wants to
hang on as long as he can. He wants the fever to claim him and the second after
he stops breathing, he wants to make sure his brain is significantly damaged so
that he cannot rise and threaten the other survivors. Alex doesn’t believe in
suicide and he is willing to gut out the pain of succumbing to the fever. In
his words, “I want every last minute.”
I think that is the voice of a
survivor. It is his voice. I am going to have to watch him suffer through this
but that is going to be nothing compared to what he is going to have to go
through.
I cannot believe I let this happen. I
am going to lose my son. I know we have already lost so many but this is
different. This is beyond personal. Amidst the shadows of losing Kanen, Joe,
and Shannon, this one hurts ten times worse. I am not trying to diminish their
loss. Kelsey is in the same boat as Alex.
But this is my son. My son that was my
whole reason for gutting this thing out. I am not saying I am considering
taking the easy way out. I have to be strong for him now. But this, this is the
worst possible fate. I would trade places with him in a second if I could…
Words cannot describe it.
And sorry, I had bad record keeping on
my last entry.
LOST MEMBERS:
Joseph Charles – Male, Langley,
OK
Shannon Fox – Female, Pensacola,
OK
Kanen Kraig – Male,
Langley, OK
