I guess I need to confess a secret
here because members of our group do not read these entries. Sharon recently
confessed to me that she is planning on leaving or group and she has asked for
my help to make sure that this happens.
Before Zero Hour, Sharon would commute
about an hour to Langley from a place that her and her husband Doug share on a
lake. It is a farm place with well water, chickens, some goats, a pretty large
vegetable garden and the whole of their property is fenced off with some pretty
heavy duty fencing. This is not like your standard cattle barbed wire but more
along the lines of metal tubing that would hold back horses if necessary. It is
not like the property was fenced off with a rock wall or anything but the place
could be highly defensible and self-sustaining. Plus, Doug is no stranger to
weapons. If Doug could have got the gate closed early, there is a very real
chance he is alive and possibly thriving on their farm. Sharon believes this
whole-heartedly.
Her plan is to load up a few supplies
and use one of the cars from the parking lot to make the trek back to her
place. She hasn’t said when she is leaving but she led me to believe that it is
going to be soon.
We have already lost the father of the
group in Fred and now we are losing the mother. I tried to I try to talk her
out of it but it about three sentences into the conversation, I could tell her
mind is made up. I cannot really fault her. She wants to go find out if Doug is
alive. It is an isolated homestead. It is not like Tommy who would have to wade
through who knows how many zombies in residential Claremore…
And I know this is going to sound
horrible to say but she has taught as all she knows. I mean from the beginning,
Sharon had a lot of our group in the kitchen, showing us how she did things
cooking wise. Maybe she had it in the back of her mind all along that this was
going to be the grand plan so she was building some redundancy into the system
regarding her role within our family.
I am going to be pissed to see her
leave but I understand why she is doing it. And she told me that if she shows
up and Doug is gone or if the place is overrun, she can always just turn around
and drive back. So, in a way, strange as this sounds, I hope I don’t see her
again. I hope she shows up and Doug is outside chopping wood to keep the
fireplace going and keep the place warm.
So, for now, we can just enjoy
Sharon’s presence. I am not going to tell the rest of the group. I will let her
tell them but I appreciate the fact that she came to tell me in person about
her plans but she also looking for me to give approval to her plan. She wants
me to stand beside her in case the group reacts poorly and wants to talk her
out of it. And I have agreed.
I guess in that way it means that I am
growing into my role as the leader. Still,
I am going to miss her…
